Seems one of the classmates living some kinds of life truly wonderful life style. They even have made a video and make me truly admire. But I can not change the way I am living now because there are so much duty and mouths live on me and make me can not take a move on this chair. I usually complain about my life and I did not find reason and finally I have found that I was wrong .All these things are caused by myself. And I have to tear these things for no excuses. And this is why the life turn back to me. I finally find the sin in my life and I have to take on my shoulder and make the whole family carry on .
They are all old now , and they even have no power to change their situation now. Now they are all depend on me. Three mouthes and one person take this duty. You would feel how hard I am living now. But I do not have any choice for this life. Because the god have arranged these things for me and make me can never say no to my life. And this is why I am here and fighting truly hard and never give up for my future. Today is cold I have few words to say .But the life continue.

